The gift of Life

We always knew we were going to try again for another little baby... We didn't want Celia to grow up all alone... So, we set a date- August 2006... we were to have money saved up for an insemination at the Conceptia Clinic... As August came, there just wasn't any money there... So, we had resigned to just not have another little baby... My heart was broken... but there is more to life then children, right?

So, I made some phone calls to friends who had or were having babies to see if they needed any of the baby stuff we had... and one friend said to me...

"Why are you giving up?? Can't you just ask someone??"

I said to her... "We don't know anyone that would be able... (the few men in our lives are gay and HIV+) and that others we wouldn't be comfortable with..." then I said, "I mean really, How do you advertise that?? Put up a poster at the grocery??" She started laughing... and she said she was sorry and would come down and take a look at what we had...

Within 10 mintes, the phone rang again... She says, my boyfriend wants to help... He can have babies and he really wants to... (I don't even know him!!)

I was like- "are you serious?? Is he sure?? This isn't going to mess anything up between the two of you is it??" She was more than happy to tell me that she would love it... and thinks it's so cool that her new baby would be a "sister" to our new baby... What a thought, eh?

SO, the questions I ask myself... Should the baby know who his/her father is? Should the baby know it's siblings? THis is such a small town, what if we don't say anything and the kids start dating together? Is it too late to tell them?

pondering ~L